Seriously. Go ahead. Delete me from your blogroll. Cut my story out of your life. Throw something at me. Call me names behind my back. Point fingers. And say “I told you so.” Because I am indeed pregnant. Today, at 12dp3dt my beta was 303.
Will it make you hate me less if I tell you I will still SWEAR on something really really important that I knew last weekend it didnt work? (T says no, I didnt know…I thought I knew…) But the signs were the SAME they were every other cycle. Every other failed cycle. Cycle one, cycle three, cycle 3.5 cycle four…all the same signs. And every time, I tried to listen to people tell me I was wrong, it wasn’t over…and I was NOT EVER WRONG. NOT. EVER. So if you say you’ll never believe anything I have to say again…that’s fine. But I believed it. I KNEW it. I always longed to be this person but I never was. I can certainly be a drama queen, but in this instance, I swear, I was not being one. I was being true.
Will it make you hate me less if I tell you we lost power in the Unnamed Hurricane that slammed the Northeast…leaving us without power or heat since Saturday…and likely through the end of this week? Giant trees are lying in neighbor’s upstairs bedrooms. Cars are smashed in. Roads are practically impassible. We gave up after 24 hours of freezingness and just checked into a hotel yesterday. Along with a whole lot of other people.
Will it make you hate me less when I tell you I am SCARED SHITLESS right now? Because I find I am already checking my due date. I am already thinking…is it one, two or three little guys in there? I am already fretting about if it is either of the latter two. I am already thinking of names. I am JUMPING THE GUN LIKE NOBODYS BUSINESS and I can’t stop it. I just never thought this would happen. I still am not sure that it has. But it was 303. Wow. Ides of March…
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Wonderful news! I’m glad you were pleasantly surprised.
March 15th, 2010
Wonderful! I am glad the same was not the same and you will have a healthy and amazing pregnancy.
March 15th, 2010
Holy cow! Congratulations!! Don’t hate you at all
March 15th, 2010
Congratulations
And honestly? I was exactly the same when I was pregnant with my last baby. I was angry and frustrated and I KNEW it didn’t work. Everything was terrible, timing was wrong, there was NO WAY I was pregnant. I was angry at the world, I was a bitch to everyone in my life. And then “oops two lines”
Its often those cycles where you are convinced it hasnt worked…that it has.
So if it’s alright with you I’ll keep reading thank you very much
March 15th, 2010
Huge congrats!! That’s a great beta number that would get me to start picking out names too.
here from LFCA
March 16th, 2010
AHHHHHH! OMG! I am seriously jumping up and down right now! I saw the title of this blog post in my blogroll and I’m thinking “Oh sh!t, she’s gone off the deep end!” It’s been a while, I gotta check her out.
And then I see this!!! LOVE it! So fricking happy for you hon! Congratulations!
March 16th, 2010
Congratulations! Awesome news!
March 16th, 2010
from LFCA… Congratulations!!!
March 16th, 2010
omg, that’s amazing!!! congratulations! i don’t hate you. i know the roller coaster of emotions in the 2WW and the expected disappointment all too well myself. i’m so excited for you!
pick out those names! calculate that due date! you are PREGNANT!
March 16th, 2010
This is the right kind of “wrong” to be. I was absolutely sure I was pregnant during my FET. I was right, but mostly wrong.
Just proves our brains get all kind of messed up during our 2WW.
In any case, right or wrong, you are PG!! No denying it with that HCG level.
How very thrilling!
Jem (no, I don’t hate you!!)
March 16th, 2010
I hear ya! The last cycle we did I KNEW it didnt work! I cried for the days leading up to beta because i KNEW it was going to be negative! but much to my shock, it was positive! not only positive… but TWINS! I am still in shock.
March 16th, 2010
YAAAAYYYY!!! I knew it. I was scared to check your blog because I was afraid I’d be wrong. But I had such a GOOOD feeling about this cycle. YIPEEEEE!!!! I am so, so very happy for you!!!
Super hugs & more!!
-g
March 16th, 2010
holy shit girl. holy.shit. see i told you. i knew it. omg, omg, omg, omg!!! fall babies for us yo! wow, omg! xoxoxoxoxoxo
March 17th, 2010
oh and sorry about the storm, i saw it on the news and it sucks big ones. but you know what youre pregnant so its all good huh? wow again, just friggen wow my friend. tons of hugs and smooches frm cairo girl. xoxoxo
March 17th, 2010
Congratulations!!
March 17th, 2010
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