A little behind in the updating here…but I am full steam ahead. Did the coculture, did the patch(es), did the Ganirelix x3, got a period, had some bloodwork and an ultrasound (gulp, about to fall off the reproductive cliff completely, AFC seemed to be just over half of what it was two years ago), and just finished injecting night #2 of 450 Follistim and 150 Menopur. I forgot how much the latter burns…but I now have a new fave drug (that’s right, KK, me too) in the Follistim . It’s easy to load and the needle is is so tiny and sharp, it’s a delight to inject into my lower stomach!
So here we go. Sigh. I was kissing P and tucking him in, and thinking of the medical paraphernalia awaiting me at the dining room table…and I had such a surreal moment. My son, this crazy, clever, loving, stubborn, (and quite often fresh these days) boy… he came to us…he is so much more than we ever could have dreamed of…and he too started as a box of needles, syringes and various vials. And back then, in a dining room 3,000 miles away, I was sitting amongst those things, thinking, what if this doesn’t work AGAIN???? And here I am, pretty much exactly five years to the day I was doing that, and I am trying for my third child. This marks my SEVENTH fresh ivf. TWO FETs. TWO IUIs. (Some might call me crazy. Yep, they’d be right.) Will this cycle complete our family? Or is it already complete? It is much easier to be mindful, spiritual, and give it up to God this time, something I could not do either time before. Maybe because before I thought, No WAY is this your plan. No damn way. I will not accept this plan of yours. And now, I kind of think, OK, if this is the plan, I think maybe I can do this your way. (disclaimer: I completely understand this is (likely) not the way the Lord works.)
Next monitoring will be this Friday morning for some b/w. Also…my TSH did drop a whole “point”, which is fab news, so tyvm, thyroid medication. It is nice to know you can do what you are made to do.
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